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Thursday, 27 September 2007

  • Good Heavens

    Two weeks? Two weeks?

    I swore up and down that it's was only a week or so.Ok are you ready for some updates?

    Oh before I do that I promised you an excerpt from "O my rock n roll heaven"

    Since then I wrote like 4 songs & a lost  an old school one.

    I'm so pissed about that if I find it I might go outside and make out with a squirrel.

    Nast!

    Excerpts from songs( the first one is o my rock n roll heaven,2 nd is Fallen Gypsy & the 3rd is Perfect Prefect:

    "O my (3x) rock n roll heaven, you said you've changed but you're still the same,And I believe everything you say even the lies. Take a hit,sit back and relax"

    "Girl with the flowing brown hair.With time to spare and no money to waste.Come,come over here and let me tell you about this place. At night everyone comes out to play..."

    "Perfect Prefect left to cough up blood in a hotel.Perfect Prefect has some stories to tell.The slut called danger and the boy cried wolf"

    I hate life.This my fucking juinor year in high school and I'm not enrolled in any AP classes.My GC[guidance counselor] is like you can't go into an AP class 2nd cycle without taking it 1st cycle yadda yadda.That italian whore! No offense to my Italian readers.

    I live in brooklyn ,I love ya'll.Yeah so that started off the morning raw.I didn't even  get a latte today weird.

    My mom wants me to go on the fucking computer that she dosen't even know how to use to help her with some stupid shit all weekend.

    Godddd I want to die.

    Honestly I've been feeling really weird lately.A little off and distant. I feel like I don't have anyone.

    Everyone is so busy and I'm left in the dust.

    Sad,i'll stop writing.

    [I have an accl.Italian & U.S history test tomo,Wish me luck!!!!,bitch]

    Share Bear

    xoxo

Friday, 14 September 2007

  • Worst Week (&some days ever)

    Well not really but whatever.

    I've been really busy!!!

    I'm back to school& I'm more focused then ever.My birthday was yesterday (yay,me) but it sucked.It sucked hard.I spent it with my parents that says it all.Oh yeah I turned 16 by the way.First we went to to I hop (a decent one,ugh) & then we went shopping.

    The whole time misses cunt I mean my mother is bitching and moaning the whole effing day.Give me a break she's like this on the daily. I was so pissed ready to wack her over the head with anything I could find.She's depressing to be around ;a fucking grouch bitch complains about everything.

    She's one of the most vile,crude,annoying &aggravating peopleI know. I don't care if you think I'm being mean.Live with her for a day and you'll feel the same motherfucking way.

    Tomorrow I was supposed to hang with my girls but fuck it.My parents are snubbing the idea so I won't grovel for it.I shouldn't.

    Half of me is like you'll be out of their house in approx. 22 months.Why do I even bother everytime I want to h/o with my friends it's no no no.What the fuck?!!!

    Are they that dumb fucked as a parent to know that if they keep "protecting" me like this  that when I'm gone I'm going to go fucking crazy.

    Rehab and all that good shiz.

    *breathes*

    ok

    Britney's VMA performance was...horrid.It was like watching a homeless cat with a heart condition slowly die.Girlfriend had no energy,illusions,magic thingies,(wtf?chris angel?) or lip syncing tactics.At least her hair was sorta cute,the belly was wagging though.That "perfromance" was a major disappointment*sigh* oh well.Sarah Silverman was just sooo un neccesary.Mtv totally whored brit brit out.She needs to go into hiding until she's attractive and talented(???)again.

    NOW...

    I wrote a song called "O my rock n roll heaven";I'll post an excerpt next entry!

    Anyway my classes at school are remotely decent,my program is fixed.In my U.S history class there's this really annoying chick& one hot guy that smiles at me alot.

    Oh my god,let me tell you!

    There's this cute guy I always see by the bus stop(s).He has these black avaitor sunglasses and a mohawk that's never out of place.I don't know where he came from but momma likes.

    I think he transferred into my school.I've never seen him there,we have 4000+students but anyway.I doubt he's a freshman....but he is short.

    I love the mystery around this guy.No name,nothing *sighs happily*

    It's not a crush don't mess with me.I'm on a hiatus..untI'm like 25.Eye candy.Eye Candy.Eye Candy.

    My sidekick is annoying me.The trackball is bipolar and everyone has one.

    I need a white blackberry ASAP;I'll shut up now.

     * A moment of silence for those those that died in the 9/11 tradegy.God bless their families& loved ones.I hope you can guide them through the rest of their lives..Please grant them wisdom,courage,understanding and most of all happiness.Amen*

    Mucho Amor

    xoxo

    Share bear

     

Tuesday, 04 September 2007

  • The future is near.

    heyy babe.

    First and foremost let me warn you.This post might be a little lenghty.Did you hear Britney Spears' new songs ???!!!..."Gimme More" and "Cold as fire".

    I've always been a fan of her music.These tracks are from her new album that's coming out on November 13th.

    I can't wait to see her VMA performance Sept.9 (This Sun @ 9 on MTV).If everything goes well this can be her year..her career..her life back!

    Update on love life...I was going to meet with an male online pal.He cancelled on me and I was pretty disappointed.Whatever then I tell him I don't when I can meet him again.Keep in mind he bailed on me because he's "busy".He's like and I quote " yeah.nevermind.I don't really want to meet you.sorry.I have someone else.Bye."

    Who the fuck does he think he is?Brad Pitt?

    He's not even that attractive.What a pussy feen loser!He's hitting up every chick on teenspot.com to find out their location so he can hook up with them.Sadness.

    Kiddies never met someone you only know on online.It's stupid,dangerous and dangerous!

    Never give them nudes&personal information like numbers,perosnal addresses etc.

    Just saying &

    on another note..

    I've been thinking about how I want the rest of my life to go after september(13th)* my 16th b day*

    After high school I want to go to a college/university in nyc.

    FUN STUFF now..

    For my seventeenth birthday I want to have an intimate& casual party with close friends&family in my backyard.

    When I'm 18 I'm going to celebrate my b-day at a nyc hotspot ::legally allowed in clubs by then:

     For my 21st b-day I'm going to have three parties in Vegas.

    On college spring breaks I want to go Tijuana,Cancun&California.

    Hopefully take some road trips in between.

    Anyway Life will come as it may<3

    xoxoShare Bear

     

Monday, 03 September 2007

  • Too busy & so maternal

    Oh my rock&roll heaven.

    This weekend was insane.

    I don't even know where to start.

    My whole family I mean my  whole family was in my house.

    My cousins from Canada,Uncles& Aunts from St.Vincent& etc.

    All the kids are following me.

    Am I that motherly?I do love kids...

    But this weekend made me re think having a huge family in the future.

    Cleaning,Cooking,Babysitting(???).

    I love my family but one family memeber at a time

    I'm happy that my house is quiet now.

    Peace.Serenity.And two years before I leave my mother's house.

    Amen

    xoxo-Share bear

     

    p.s-Happy Labor Day XD <---so true,tons of labor.

Monday, 27 August 2007

  • Responsive & Realistic.

    Thanks guys for the array of comments on the last post. I was so happy. I love to hear people's opinions,debates and agreements are always reviting.

    I found a new obession after writing and Lindsay Lohan of course.Rilo Kiley is an amazing indie rock band. The new album "Under the blacklight" is out now,go pick that up.

    Their music is my persona in song.Updates on me... I'm starting my junior year in high school next tuesday. This is a big fucking deal. SAT'S,Regents,Classes Overload plus I have to boost my 80 Gpa. This year pratically spells stress,techinally it defines my future.

    Honestly I think I'm semi?-ready.This summer I almost died of boredom and heat exhaustion.School keeps you busy and in tune. I have alot of teacher ass to kiss but hey.

    Entry into NYU needs tons of work. I'm joining the school newspaper :)and I got to remember to check out the updated club list and join some of that crap.

    Somewhere in between this I'm supposed to pencil in community service& a social life.

    Good luck ,Good luck to me.

    xoxo-Share bear