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Good Heavens

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 20:55:43 GMT

Two weeks? Two weeks?

I swore up and down that it's was only a week or so.Ok are you ready for some updates?

Oh before I do that I promised you an excerpt from "O my rock n roll heaven"

Since then I wrote like 4 songs & a lost an old school one.

I'm so pissed about that if I find it I might go outside and make out with a squirrel.

Nast!

Excerpts from songs( the first one is o my rock n roll heaven,2 nd is Fallen Gypsy & the 3rd is Perfect Prefect:

"O my (3x) rock n roll heaven, you said you've changed but you're still the same,And I believe everything you say even the lies. Take a hit,sit back and relax"

"Girl with the flowing brown hair.With time to spare and no money to waste.Come,come over here and let me tell you about this place. At night everyone comes out to play..."

"Perfect Prefect left to cough up blood in a hotel.Perfect Prefect has some stories to tell.The slut called danger and the boy cried wolf"

I hate life.This my fucking juinor year in high school and I'm not enrolled in any AP classes.My GC[guidance counselor] is like you can't go into an AP class 2nd cycle without taking it 1st cycle yadda yadda.That italian whore! No offense to my Italian readers.

I live in brooklyn ,I love ya'll.Yeah so that started off the morning raw.I didn't even get a latte today weird.

My mom wants me to go on the fucking computer that she dosen't even know how to use to help her with some stupid shit all weekend.

Godddd I want to die.

Honestly I've been feeling really weird lately.A little off and distant. I feel like I don't have anyone.

Everyone is so busy and I'm left in the dust.

Sad,i'll stop writing.

[I have an accl.Italian & U.S history test tomo,Wish me luck!!!!,bitch]

Share Bear

xoxo

Worst Week (&some days ever)

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 22:34:23 GMT

Well not really but whatever.

I've been really busy!!!

I'm back to school& I'm more focused then ever.My birthday was yesterday (yay,me) but it sucked.It sucked hard.I spent it with my parents that says it all.Oh yeah I turned 16 by the way.First we went to to I hop (a decent one,ugh) & then we went shopping.

The whole time misses cunt I mean my mother is bitching and moaning the whole effing day.Give me a break she's like this on the daily. I was so pissed ready to wack her over the head with anything I could find.She's depressing to be around ;a fucking grouch bitch complains about everything.

She's one of the most vile,crude,annoying &aggravating peopleI know. I don't care if you think I'm being mean.Live with her for a day and you'll feel the same motherfucking way.

Tomorrow I was supposed to hang with my girls but fuck it.My parents are snubbing the idea so I won't grovel for it.I shouldn't.

Half of me is like you'll be out of their house in approx. 22 months.Why do I even bother everytime I want to h/o with my friends it's no no no.What the fuck?!!!

Are they that dumb fucked as a parent to know that if they keep "protecting" me like this that when I'm gone I'm going to go fucking crazy.

Rehab and all that good shiz.

*breathes*

Britney's VMA performance was...horrid.It was like watching a homeless cat with a heart condition slowly die.Girlfriend had no energy,illusions,magic thingies,(wtf?chris angel?) or lip syncing tactics.At least her hair was sorta cute,the belly was wagging though.That "perfromance" was a major disappointment*sigh* oh well.Sarah Silverman was just sooo un neccesary.Mtv totally whored brit brit out.She needs to go into hiding until she's attractive and talented(???)again.

NOW...

I wrote a song called "O my rock n roll heaven";I'll post an excerpt next entry!

Anyway my classes at school are remotely decent,my program is fixed.In my U.S history class there's this really annoying chick& one hot guy that smiles at me alot.

Oh my god,let me tell you!

There's this cute guy I always see by the bus stop(s).He has these black avaitor sunglasses and a mohawk that's never out of place.I don't know where he came from but momma likes.

I think he transferred into my school.I've never seen him there,we have 4000+students but anyway.I doubt he's a freshman....but he is short.

I love the mystery around this guy.No name,nothing *sighs happily*

It's not a crush don't mess with me.I'm on a hiatus..untI'm like 25.Eye candy.Eye Candy.Eye Candy.

My sidekick is annoying me.The trackball is bipolar and everyone has one.

I need a white blackberry ASAP;I'll shut up now.

* A moment of silence for those those that died in the 9/11 tradegy.God bless their families& loved ones.I hope you can guide them through the rest of their lives..Please grant them wisdom,courage,understanding and most of all happiness.Amen*

Mucho Amor

xoxo

Share bear

The future is near.

Tue, 04 Sep 2007 22:35:09 GMT

heyy babe.

First and foremost let me warn you.This post might be a little lenghty.Did you hear Britney Spears' new songs ???!!!..."Gimme More" and "Cold as fire".

I've always been a fan of her music.These tracks are from her new album that's coming out on November 13th.

I can't wait to see her VMA performance Sept.9 (This Sun @ 9 on MTV).If everything goes well this can be her year..her career..her life back!

Update on love life...I was going to meet with an male online pal.He cancelled on me and I was pretty disappointed.Whatever then I tell him I don't when I can meet him again.Keep in mind he bailed on me because he's "busy".He's like and I quote " yeah.nevermind.I don't really want to meet you.sorry.I have someone else.Bye."

Who the fuck does he think he is?Brad Pitt?

He's not even that attractive.What a pussy feen loser!He's hitting up every chick on teenspot.com to find out their location so he can hook up with them.Sadness.

Kiddies never met someone you only know on online.It's stupid,dangerous and dangerous!

Never give them nudes&personal information like numbers,perosnal addresses etc.

Just saying &

on another note..

I've been thinking about how I want the rest of my life to go after september(13th)* my 16th b day*

After high school I want to go to a college/university in nyc.

FUN STUFF now..

For my seventeenth birthday I want to have an intimate& casual party with close friends&family in my backyard.

When I'm 18 I'm going to celebrate my b-day at a nyc hotspot ::legally allowed in clubs by then:

For my 21st b-day I'm going to have three parties in Vegas.

On college spring breaks I want to go Tijuana,Cancun&California.

Hopefully take some road trips in between.

Anyway Life will come as it may<3

xoxoShare Bear

Too busy & so maternal

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 03:32:18 GMT

Oh my rock&roll heaven.

This weekend was insane.

I don't even know where to start.

My whole family I mean my whole family was in my house.

My cousins from Canada,Uncles& Aunts from St.Vincent& etc.

All the kids are following me.

Am I that motherly?I do love kids...

But this weekend made me re think having a huge family in the future.

Cleaning,Cooking,Babysitting(???).

I love my family but one family memeber at a time

I'm happy that my house is quiet now.

Peace.Serenity.And two years before I leave my mother's house.

Amen

xoxo-Share bear

p.s-Happy Labor Day XD <---so true,tons of labor.

Responsive & Realistic.

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 19:49:19 GMT

Thanks guys for the array of comments on the last post. I was so happy. I love to hear people's opinions,debates and agreements are always reviting.

I found a new obession after writing and Lindsay Lohan of course.Rilo Kiley is an amazing indie rock band. The new album "Under the blacklight" is out now,go pick that up.

Their music is my persona in song.Updates on me... I'm starting my junior year in high school next tuesday. This is a big fucking deal. SAT'S,Regents,Classes Overload plus I have to boost my 80 Gpa. This year pratically spells stress,techinally it defines my future.

Honestly I think I'm semi?-ready.This summer I almost died of boredom and heat exhaustion.School keeps you busy and in tune. I have alot of teacher ass to kiss but hey.

Entry into NYU needs tons of work. I'm joining the school newspaper :)and I got to remember to check out the updated club list and join some of that crap.

Somewhere in between this I'm supposed to pencil in community service& a social life.

Good luck ,Good luck to me.

xoxo-Share bear

Sex'd up & Still a Virgin

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 15:07:05 GMT

A bay a bay bay!

Sorry if you missed me but I really don't have anything to contribute.

Is it me or when you're about to turn 16 the word sex seems to be everywhere.

In songs,stories,tv,radio!!!

America makes it so casual. It has no substance. No one assmues you're a virgin anymore especially if you're remotely attractive.

I never even had my first kiss yet. Yes yes I said it fucker.

It's so awkward when guys try to scope my pants and they barely know how to pull up theirs.

Half of me is like what's so awesome about virginity and the other half is like it's special..very special.

Another thing I loathe sluts,whore,hoes and skanks(they all have the same meaning in my opinion).

They must just be thrilled having a penis up their cooch de cooch every hour! Loooser than a meditterean goose.

When I have my first official boyfriend. I'll update you on my love life, like k?.

For now and then some,I'm purer than snow babe.

The world can keep its STD'S,AIDS, and pregnancy.

-Share bear xoxo

Semi Charmed kind of life

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 20:14:39 GMT

'Ello bitches.Pardon my french hello fellow readers? I can't really say that with no comments and all.If you do read my site and haven't subscribed please do. Also leave a comment it'll make my day. Instead of subscribing to a slut's xanga. What do you think ??!! -.-

Maybe it's me but I think life is meant to be semi-chamed. Just a little amazing with a dash of agony.My creative strings are definitely on point today. I wrote two songs in five minutes? Who does that? Ha only me. One is titled "Molly Sue" and the other is "Red Light District".You can add songwriter to my resume containing h.s student,sister in law,teenager,musician & creative analyst. I made the last one up I have no idea what that fucking means.

Molly Sue is about a popular beautiful girl from a small town that gets raped& murdered by her stepbrother.

My inspiration for that came from listening to the uber indie band Rilo Kiley.

Here's the chorus:"

One dark night she took a walk through the nearest park

Two days later missing posters cover every tree and landpost

Molly Sue lovely girl where are you?

Gone without a trace and all we can do is pray"

Red Light District is about a married man and his mistress finally putting an end to their dirty deed.

Here's an excerpt:"

I feel contemplative and so so do you

you became my cocaine

Hushed by the wind guiding the trees to sleep

The moment says it all"

My inspiration from that didn't really come from anywhere.I just wanted to write about something different from what I usually write.

Usually I write about revenge,teen angst,mental disorders or love in all its glory.

Nice change I think wow this is a long post!!!

The retainer is a little better,really gross when you wake up though.

Ugh the rawness.

Anyway til next time America.

xoxo-Share bear

Measure of Perfection

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 20:14:43 GMT

The title of this entry probably tweaked your noggin strings into countless directions. The story is I went to my orthodonist today at 11 am.I got a retainer for my top teeth that he removed the braces from. My bottom teeth however still have braces on. The rules are the retainer has to be worn 24/7. When I talk I sound like a constipated asthmatic nerd!!! Hopefully in three days this heavy tongue syndrome gets over it self.That's what I got to do if I want PERFECT teeth by..prom?In other news it's drizzling on and off here in Brooklyn.I just stood in the "rain" for a little bit. I never felt so calm in my span of life yet.Now I know dancing in the rain and all that isn't a bunch of hype.How you ever that of what perfection is? I think it varies from person to person.For the rest of lives we will placed in categories and sub categories on our appearance. Just be genuine and the greatest judge of them all will come off their pedestal and greet you with a handshake.

---Share Bear xoxo

Hello & Thank You.

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 18:26:28 GMT

I think it's time for people to have a wake up call. A true moment of self discovery and newly grasped knowledge. So much to my amusement I joined the blogger train. I retired in Jan.2006. It got kind of tiresome and I wanted to enjoy it. Not drown in misery and do it for my then subscripers. I just want to start off by saying.This blog is about my life. Not Lindsay Lohan's,not my BFF's love life or My parent's odd marriage.It's for me. Writing is my release and now that I'm here. It'll be your addiction.

About me:

I'm Sharifa,15(yeah yeah I know),Resides in Brooklyn,Ny.

My b-day is 9/13

I have 3 best friends.

I'm addicted to starbucks.

Manhattan is where my heart is.

Teenage boys suck.

I'm content.

-Share Bear xoxo